It's like everyday we're growing apart. I don't like it, it scares me because this isn't how I thought it would be between us. See when the two other members left it was just me and my friend now. And we swore that nothing would happen between us that would cause is to drift apart. But I think just by saying that we jinxed our friendship. Ever since I went back to school she's been very short with me. Before the summer we would share everything with eachother...EVERYTHING! Before it was like I KNOW she likes this, or i KNOW she likes him, and it was the same with her she knew everything that I liked and disliked. But now it's like I THINK...with pretty much everything. HAHA we had this little joke that was like she was my white twin, and I was her brown twin, it was because we said the same things at the same time a lot, and we did the same things at the same time we had the same thoughts and everything about us was the same. I haven't changed but I see that she has. I know that I haven't because all my other friends say this to me many times " You know..I notice that a lot of people have changed over the years. But you haven't and I like that about you because I don't want you to change" or something along those lines. And I actually get comments about my friend like " She's changed".
Now I know this may not be any of my business but I think she has a boyfriend and she isn't telling me. Last time she had a boyfriend she told me everything about him and was like go talk to him! Now she's getting these mysterious phonecalls, and she calls this guy back. And I asked who it was because usually she tells me about her conversations as I do aswell. And she looked at me straight in the eyes and said..."It's a secret". I couldn't believe it. I was like wow...Now you might be going "THAT'S NONE OF YOUR F****** BUSINESS!!" but I kind of feel left out.
When you're best friends with someone the best way to show your love towards them is to pay attention to what's going on in there life. I was going to tell her that I got a job. And this my first one too, so it should be important right? She didn't even listen to me she was just kind of "awesome..awesome..awesome.." I know that when she doesn't care about something she goes "awesome" and I felt so bad! I was like i take intrest in the littlest things that have to do with her life and she doesn't care about me getting a job? She had some problems with her family and she was upset..I was the one that helped her through it. It's not like I'm asking for credit or anything that isn't friendship. But you know I felt bad when she would call me crying, or I would call her and she would be crying. I could even tell that she was crying on MSN. I was there for her, and she even thanked me for it. But she doesn't see, to be there for me when I need her. I don't know what to do. But I am lucky because one of the friends that moved away who I was crazy close to is helping me out with all of this. I love her for this. See she isn't even here and she is here for me. We keep in touch, and e-mail eachother everyday, and sometimes even call eachother. So I am thankful that she is still with me. I LOVE YOU TIABABZZ!
~The Mystery Girl
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